There are so many things right now that I do not understand. Our current administration in America baffles me. The fact that people voted the way they did more than baffles me. The health plan is scary, the economic plan is scarier, the way folks can think they are righteous for rescuing a child from it’s mother on one corner and then also think themselves righteous for killing a baby on another corner is even more confusing. Even the weather is weird lately. So many things seem so out of order. But there is one thing I do know.
Before my mom passed away I went to California to see her knowing it would probably be the last time. She was so close to the end and all I wanted to do was hold her hand and pray and cry and tell her I loved her. But others thought I was there to be the hired hand, the chauffer, the nurse. I am not a nurse. I am a daughter, and a mother to many and a nurturer, but not a nurse. But I did what was expected of me. I do that way too often. My two second oldest children and I carried her to the car and took her for a radiation appt. She could not even sit in the wheelchair. The radiation Dr. saw her and gasped and said call the family. We told her that most the rest of the family did not understand but we called anyway. They were grasping at straws and expecting this Dr. to save her. The Dr. told us she couldn’t. She told us to take her over to the ER to at least get some fluids. This was in So Cal, far from my country home. Back in the big city. I had to quickly remember to drop the “yes ma’am’s” and remember my “habla espanol”. They finally called for my mom and the nurse interrogated me. Wanted her SSN# and wanted to know all about any medications she was on. I kept telling her that my brother is a Dr. in that same hospital, call him. But she just kept shouting at me. I finally shouted back.
I know one thing and only one thing. I know Jesus Christ and Him crucified and risen again! That is all I know at this minute!
It worked, she thought I was a lunatic. But I felt so much better . So when all is haywire and you are swimming in a sea of “I don’t know’s” just remember what you do know. And it will all be OK.